Just because I can NOT TELL you in so many words WHY I am upset most definitely does
mean I or your or anyone is depressed. Depression is something that affects a person’s everyday life, or it is something that restricts you!
And for those reasons I do not believe that I personally need some bitch to tell me I am “depressed” when their selves have never had an issue rather then something as simple as being late for work.
Why do we pair our senses?
Why do we look and hear instead of touch and hear?
Do not sensor, embrace. Do not think just observe. Let the wind seduce your ears and let the view control your eyes. Let your eyes lead to wear they want to lead and do not think but embrace. We are who we are and that is a fact, but we do not all like ourselves. That is also a fact. But, the fact that people see and understand that they do not like
themselves and complain about it but do not change it. Is a painful fact. Not everyone who wanders is lost and not ever one you think is lost. Is. There is as much as difference between wandering and looking, being lost and exploring. As there is making love and Fucking!
The word love is not a word that gets thown around a lot but rather it is a feeling of passion that gets played with! If you do not see that you are one who has been blinded with societies thought on “love’ you have been blinded by your self because you hear one thing but feel another. You do not trust your senses you sensor and you “fix” things mentally you conect things as that’s how your mind has grown to work.
You want people to understand you but they can’t. The only person that can understand stand you and your thoughts is you! And your stuck in your own head.
You are surrounded by people and yet! Your so alone. You can not feel you just do. Your not sensoring but your also not living. I! Am locked in a state of mind that I can not tell you why I am upset! I can NOT tell you what I feel. Because I do not know. I can NOT say I have a headache because I do not know what one feels like. I feel like me locked in a childs state of mind with no knowledgement on realitly! I
And I do not like me…. I can not feel I just smile, I don’t know what happiness is and I feel that. But its fake. It is not happiness I remember it is not a feeling I do not enjoy but nor is it one I enjoy. It is something that people have assumed means your ok and everything is good with you. Ever have when you just want someone to just Fucking sit there! Just Fucking sit there hold you and say what you want to hear even if you don’t know !!! Of course you do who doesn’t?
Me. I just want a dam hug ! I just want to feel like I have a structure. I don’t like being alone just as much as the next person. Not because I don’t like sitting in an empty house but I hate not know IF I’M yet again surrounded by people! And so ALONE.